I got first but felt like I was in last place.

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I haven’t been able to run for a long time. And it’s not a hamstring injury.

I have a thing called “adrenal fatigue.” If you want to know more about it, click on the link, but for now I’m going to tell you what it means to me.

  • I never get a runner’s high.

  • I always feel like I don’t have enough energy to do the next thing

  • I have a hard time getting out of bed in the morning

  • I have a difficult time focusing at work and poor memory

  • The things I used to look forward to doing seem too difficult to do anymore

And, I might not be able to pregnant. Adrenal Fatigue has also affected my hormone levels. I first learned about Adrenal Fatigue 3 years ago from my chiropractor. It wasn’t until I discovered it may be my cause of infertility that I took it serious enough to make drastic changes to my lifestyle.

I’ve been working with Jamie and Angie at Angie Rose Health Coaching to heal my body. And it’s been working, so much so that I felt like going for a run. She said, no more long runs for now.

Yesterday and today I am attending the Iowa Bankers Conference in Des Moines. This morning the Iowa Bankers Association held a 5k run around Grey’s Lake in Des Moines, Iowa. Running a race and not pushing myself to the limits is uncharacteristic of me, but I am in a place now that focusing on healing my body is more important than winning a race. This morning as I set out on this run I told myself I was just going settle in to a nice steady pace and not overexert myself. I spent the time as I ran like I do most mornings I run, thanking God for the blessings He has provided me, talk to Him about areas I fall short and pray for those He has laid on my heart.

Within the first 1/4 of a mile I comfortably took the lead and it remained that way the entire course. Several fellow bankers and cohorts high fives me as I crossed the finish line and I received many congratulations, “nice runs” and “oh, you must be a runner”.

It was very uncomfortable for me. Here all these people are like wow, nice job and inside I had a completely different feeling. They had no idea the issues I was dealing with on the inside. How I haven’t been able to run in months. How I wanted to do so much more with running than I could do right now. How running is actually a hinderance to my body healing right now.

BIG QUESTION: Do you ever feel like you are in last place? Where? Let it out in the comments below.